[written on a nigh-sleepless night, as is well and thoroughly implied. the affliction of the gadfly is certainly not the only one she suffers. thematically connected to earlier accounts of sleep and mental imagery, though all such connections were unintended by the afflicted at the time of writing.]
in a corridor painted white
[off the spiral staircase into the abyss
where (I hear) my ancestral archetypes (fragile bony) lie]
stepping lively [to find a key (to the next circle)
away from the heat]
I stumble upon his waking words
[their size absurd
(their meaning oblique)]
and they haunt me [(not quite yet) in my sleep]
emergent from their center
a doll of half-dream matter
wearing the dark bright painted eyes
I always meant to keep
he draws me into an operating room
[I do not know what or who the scalpel in my bare hand lays
but there it is (and there it stays)]
I kiss him down onto his back
[fine shoulders (hips) lying flat]
apologize before the fact
but the half-dream doll just says
[I love you (baby
I don’t mind)]
as I bend [his words
(their truths)] to gingerly unpack
like Freud’s incisive psychotherapy
I slice through the outer layers
but my patient is not real
the mad one is not he
I do not read entrails in my waking life
but sometimes [I suspect (I fear)]
I wield the red dream-knife
the future that I see
[oh God (I hope) it will not be]
when next I kiss him down onto his back
[fine shoulders (hips) lying flat]
I will fall to silent pause
tasting memories of [(not yet) sleep] that day
he will [gentle (concerned)] ask the cause
[dark bright painted eyes cast on my eyes (cast away)]
[(once again) I will tell him
(apologizing before the fact)]
I half-dreamt of you
could not sleep for the sight of your guts
twisted up inside
he will open his arms
draw me in [where I won’t sleep (all night)]
say
[I love you (baby)
it’s all right
that was half-dream me
and now I’m here
(don’t worry
I don’t mind)]
3 comments:
Beautiful ... simply beautiful ... Your writing is amazing .. keep then coming ...
hey thanks for your comments ... it feels good to get constructive comments ... Nah I am not familiar with the work of Neil Gaiman .. maybe i will check some of his stuff out ... your stuff is like really really good ... Are u studying philosophy or something ? it sounds like stuff straight out of "the republic"
Very interesting comment ...
You seem to have misunderstood my proposition for mental independence to mean mental isolation. I think they are two completely different things. What i am advocating in this piece is not the isolation of human thoughts, but a greater level of independence from a conventional system of thought. Yes i do imply that greater knowledge equals to greater understanding which in turn translates into better governance but i never meant to imply that other people are of no use. The mantle of the philosopher king can fall on any true philosopher who understands the complexity of the mandate and who can be rational in any situation.
As regards to me being within a "system of western thought", I will agree to being within a system of thought, but will question how western this system of thought is. As i mentioned, the establishment and existence of some systems are completely unavoidable, that is why I am certainly within a system. However, my reference to Plato is but i tiny part of a much bigger picture. I also referenced Walter Reed(Killah Priest) who is a very different kind of philosopher and does not subscribe to the teachings of people like Plato or his teacher Socrates.
On a general note however, i think i catch the main point of what you are trying to say and agree with you to a certain extent. The point made in your last paragraph is in my opinion 100% on the money.
[public policy sounds pretty cool and social physiology sounds fun .. I have read a bit of Carl Jung myself and I think he is a pretty decent psychologist .. I study international business here in Sweden and its just ok .. Thanks for the comment and i also look forward to future discussions .. cheers]
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